What activity have you find as an adult, that you would have loved to find as a child?

The reason I asked, is because the little I´ve been in touch with that possibility has been must times activities that are not at my reach as an adult, or at least activities that if i was to embark on, I´d have to invest a lot of time on training myself before getting to any productive milestone and, being an adult, having the skillset of prioritizing, I´ve declared them as pursues for another time.

I´m tempted to feel like a piece of my soul is dying when I come to reckon with that.

There´s been these other times though, when childhood dreams I didn´t know I had, open up in front of me path, and wow, it´s felt like a miracle.

Training ballet was one of those.

Onr day, I stumbled upon the miracle of the possibility. I had neves thought about joining, I just knew I was in a new city -I had just moved to Manhattan and had no clue of what to do with my life-

I also knew that I wanted to get acquainted with meaningfull things, I knew that I could encounter benefits beyond my imagination. Not just findign a fitness activity, but something that would connect me with the local mindset, would help me socialize, that would help me break free from different forms of opression.

The way I found it was the first sign that God was setting me free from egypt and taking me into the promised land.

I was in my car being torture by all kinds of horrible ideas about myself, my life, my worth, how useless I was, all violent thoughts were coming towards me. I was ready to fight back and pay violence with violence, but I had been very attached to the word of God on those days, and I could stand strong.

Strong in the most gentle, gracefull way. While looking at the window, resisting the devil, I saw it. it was a sign of fitness adult ballet classes. My heart pumped in extasis.